Look At Me NOW! I’m so grateful that God’s love and affirmation is strong enough to heal ALL of our brokenness!
Due to a traumatic occurrence that caused lots of my hair to fall out when I was still a very young girl, I lived a life of brokenness in the area of my natural hair for most of my life. My “confidence” was cloaked in the length and silk of the high priced hair I bought.
As the public applauded this counterfeit life I settled for, God stood beside me in locked bathroom doors where I cried tears and looked upon the creation He made, without my “external additions”, and hated what I saw. When girls would talk about their natural hair, I literally felt unfit for the conversation.
You know you’re dealing with some major brokenness when nothing people do can help. If they complimented my hair, it forced me to uncover one of the most vulnerable parts of me and I made up reasons why what they said couldn’t be true about my hair. But this pain didn’t beat that of when there was silence and the people I encountered didn’t say anything! The devil would demolish me with all the thoughts I “knew” they were thinking about my brokenness.
I would love to tell you that one message or prayer I heard or said changed the 25 years or more that I fought this giant in my life. It has truly been a PROCESS, one that I proudly say that I have FULLY won!
I love my hair! I love my authentic beauty and my confidence pours out from the place of knowing that I am the daughter of a King! A king who’s glory that I have the honor to reflect!
Truth is....until I could get past seeing things the way the world convinced me I was supposed to see it, my mind could never be renewed to see what my Daddy saw when He looked at me. It was at this point that I was able to take baby steps and I do mean baby steps, to start the road to recovery to allow healing to manifest for my hair and my inner man! God helped me make tough choices to allow my hair to become healthy again! It’s not the longest, not the curliest, but it’s MINE and I love it!
I say this because I lived this....God will not heal what you hide! Expose whatever your thing is to the light and love of God! As long as I told myself the lie that the only reason I wore weave all the time was because it was more convenient....the longer I stayed on the path of going around and around the same mountain! Motion but no progress!
But when I decided to give God my real yes and expose my real truth concerning my hair, this giant began to fall!
My shaved sides and fluffy natural hair is a sign for the devil daily....OH you tried it, BUT ME and MY DADDY WON! (Y’all I was only 2 when he waged this attack, protect your babies by getting to know God better, because he starts early!)
Look at me! Look at Me! Look at me now! Fully free and on a mission to help free all my fellow brothers and sisters from whatever their bondage is as well! #FreePeopleFreePeople
Be bold enough to share your story so that others can be free!